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It’s been a while since I’ve last written.

That’s a common theme here, it seems. I pop in once a year to write about something, then my life catches fire, and then I get a brief reprieve a year later and finally have the energy to write some silly little jokes about whatever nonsense I just survived.

But guess what? For the first time since I can remember, I’m not in crisis. I mean, shit is happening (have you looked outside?), but personally I am no longer in survival mode.

It’s a strange place to be. And that’s not to say that 2024 has been easy, because it hasn’t. The first five months of this year were as bananas crazy as 2023, 2022, 2021, 2020, 2019, 2018, 2017–you get the idea. I was sexually assaulted, then I experienced chronic nausea for a month that was so bad that I could barely move without dry-heaving (BUT I ALSO WEANED OFF SSRIS AFTER TWENTY YEARS!), I broke up with my partner of two years because he was terrible to me (and had been for too long, but you know, it felt familiar and I conflated familiar with safe, and that’s never been true in my life), and I launched a business.

Oh yeah! I launched a business. It has been the best thing I’ve ever done in my life, bar none. It’s called Theory & Practice and I get to do the teaching work through my company that I didn’t get to do in schools. The first round of the first course is almost done, and it’s been more fulfilling, more joyous, and more intellectually stimulating than I could have possibly imagined. I have met some of the coolest people, and I’m just getting started. The plan is to someday have a brick & mortar bookstore/cafe/education space that is cooperatively owned by the employees. I can sense my dad’s Republican ashes rattling in their keepsake urn.

But part of no longer being in crisis means I finally have the energy and desire to write, and some of that desire is to get back up to some shenanigans here at HFOW. It’s a little tricky to balance running & growing a business with my desire to share stories and tell jokes on the internet, but that’s what the Adderal is for (oh yeah, turns out? ADHD over here. Are you surprised? I’m not surprised. No one is surprised).

I plan on wading my way back into this blog. I’ve got a lot to share. Can’t wait to write it all out and hopefully have people read it again. ❤